mumble mumble mystery

We’ll make the writers scribble paradox instead;
we’ll put a stop to the word incarnation.

We’ll pull the word out of the mouth, a series
of silk scarf syllables, pull the magic
out till we each have to feel our own teeth
and mumble the word mystery.

Mumble, hark the heralds, mumble,
in excelsis, mumble, shepherds pie
and indigestion, running to the run
down room to find *that thing* wrapped
in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger:
mumble mumble mystery,
mumble mumble bow the knee.
What is it? Manna?

No word comes to mind,
to heart, to pen, to tongue,
to have or to hold.

We the magi have come for a star
and have found a toddler. The command
-ment stands so we kneel and open boxes
of our best doctrines, our very best words,
that you, small king, may be crowned with
incarnation.

The Human Heart

If your life and health are going really, really well, you might not think about that organ beating in your chest night and day.🫀 It's a phenomenal thing--electricity courses over and through it and those tiny lightning strikes coordinate the pumping, squeezing, opening, closing, receiving, sending that all happens in the moment we call a "beat." 🫀 The rhythm adjusts to the demands of your moment, speeding up or slowing down to give your body the oxygen it needs just when it needs it. Impeccable timing. 🫀 The chambers, valves, and vessels wrap around one another in this intricate architecture no bigger than your fist, beating, beating, beating. 🫀 But the single most amazing thought I've had about the human heart lately is that there is one in heaven, beating, beating, beating for you and for me.

“But when Christ came as a high priest of the good things . . . he entered once for all into the the holy places, not with the blood of goats and calves, but with his own blood, thus obtaining eternal redemption.” Hebrews 9:11-12

Be Anxious for Nothing

Black and white image of roses.

these are june roses from my father’s yard. even without the color, they’re beautiful to me.

Do you feel anxious? I mean, right now? I've been on a quest to understand the experience of anxiety for the entirety of my adult life. Here's some of what I've learned.

+ All humans experience anxiety in life. + Anxiety emerges from our bodies and our thoughts; anxiety can be soothed by our bodies and our thoughts. + Anxiety might sound like "You made a mistake; you are a mistake; you need to fix this" but usually the truth is that you need to receive love and nourishment. + Social media is definitely, definitely intensifying your anxiety. So is caffeine. So is alcohol. + There is a divine peace that transcends my understanding, a peace that I always have access to. + God is not disappointed in me for the sensations I experience. + I am here, right now, and I am safe.

I Took Flea Bites

with me into the 8th grade.

There was an uprising every night,
teeny tiny terrorists jumping
up from the carpet where I slept.

—Or were they drawn? Were they in
love, irresistibly attracted
to my body, pulled up
in the beam of my warmth?

No one else was in love
with me that fall. I wore

old clothes,

walked in the classroom
like a hanger holding up
my dad’s red winter jacket
that he got by turning in
cigarette UPCs.

I carried fleas in each pocket.

But I was at peace with the fleas
and with Heather O’Dell
who kicked my backpack
across the science classroom.
I had just signed my name
with the peacemaking Jesus
and my pledge to turn
the other cheek was so fresh
that it cut the sting of each slap
right away and I offered
everybody gum—

Cotton Candy Bubblicious.

It was almost too sweet,
but irresistible,

like me.

1997